Tears~

Been sad for one and a half hours le~

Everyone also sleep le,

Cannot find anyone~

Everyday also like this~

Really don't know what to do le~

Pressure~

I want to kisiao le,

Haha~

Heart very pain le, 

Haha~

Too much pressure le,

Haha~

Study here study there don't understand le,

Haha~

Homework can't do finish le,

Haha~

Brother kept silently bully me le,

Haha~

My mum kept scolding me le,

Haha~

My friends betray me le,

Haha~

I get AJK place which I really hate le,

Haha~

I made some one angry with me le,

Haha~

Someone mistake me I like him le,

Haha~

Prefect job become more and more tough le,

Haha~

Teachers keep blaming prefects le,

Haha~

Going to have another performance le,

Haha~

I become very stupid le,

Haha~

My mum keep blaming me for bad results le,

Haha~

Family no more money le,

Haha~

Family keep asking me to study things I don't like le,

Haha~

I really want to kisiao le,

Hahahahaha!!!

I'M A TRASH!!!!!

=D

This Is The Year~

Thank you very much.

Thank you for being the last person I hoped for, but lost my trust.

Thank you.

Yes, I'm actually a very fired person. I am born with this personality and ans there nothing much I can do with it. I normally thunder most at peps I count on because I know they get my pressure. At least,I hope they know. 

One thing I really really don't understand is, what haven't I told you? I have told you I'm dealing with pressure, and all kind of pressure like what I'm facing at home, how I can't catch up with my studies, how my family needs money, what my friends did to me...and so many more. You asked why, I told you. But then, every time, you kept asking the same thing, the answer is always the same. I have told you again and again. But now I know, what ever I told you, you never bear in mind. Since I'm already tired of keep saying the same thing, I kept saying nothing. And now, you said I won't tell you anything.

I understand that you care. I said I felt alone because when I cried, you just watch, pat, asked me not to cry and kept asking me why. For you kept asking me why is caring, but for me, it's pressure. At that time, I love hugs best, not by pressuring me when I'm already crying. 

Next, you said you don't know what to do, because when I said I feel alone, you start to care for me by asking me why why and why, like what happened and seems desperate to know why. But then you said when you care for me, I felt that you are giving me pressure. You don't understand.

Let me make you understand:
I felt alone     : When I'm down, I need someone to comfort me, make me happy again, make me laugh.
Pressuring me: When I'm down, don't feel like talking, and kept asking me why and what happened.

If this is offensive, made you angry, go ahead, I need it. I'm a trash after all! Wo shi fei wu. Chao ji lan chao ji mei you yong de fei wu.

All these years I've beening hiding all kinds of pain inside of me, and I haven't realised how big and painful it have grown. And this is the year where everything burst out, that my heart can't take it anymore. This is the year where I go to sleep every night after crying, or screaming silently. How many times of this year that I slept happily? I can count with my fingers.

I'm a trash, a bloody useless trash. =]

Hmmm~

Exam around the corner. I spent the whole day eating and watching Olympic Games. Well, I did study!! For 45 minutes~ Anti Exam!! ><

Poor Lee Chong Wei lost to Lin Din. He really wanted the gold, as it will be his last year taking part in the Olympic Games. Some dumbass don't know ho tough his journey is and keep condemning him. They are seriously dumb, not to mention, ass~


Going to Sri Petaling tonight. Hope it's not boring. Going to meet my cousin there. Hope he will be fun and not annoying~

Hmmm~

OMG She so damn pretty!!!!~

Son Yeon Jae

A Tricky one~

Heheh, see if can understand this~ =P

You will be surprised ~

Dumwit~

Please just stop being stupid!
If you want, own it!
If you hate, ignore it!
If you are shy, face it!
If you are brave, do it!
If you are angry, release it!
If you love, love sincerely!

Issshhhhh! I just don't know why people are being so stupid. What for being selfish? You are good at a subject and when someone wanted your help, you don't teach. What for hurting the one who loved you and go around telling people how much they disturb you by saying how much they love you, but in the end said you regret hurting them, and that you love them too? What for breaking up if you still love them, just because you are angry for that tiny moment? What for wasting the chance you have? What for asking for people's advice, but in the end, never follow them?

What for? I'm seriously, seriously, annoyed!! SMARTY-PANTS!! DUMWITS!!