I'm So Stupid~

I'm really really stupid~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I cried.
I'm a stupid useless crybaby~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I am down whole day.

I know I have waited for very long,
And tried a lot for chance in exchange of luck~
I waited for months,
Tried for more than 40 times~
I finally got my chance, but not my luck~
It means I lost my chance by bad luck~

I should be happy~
I am happy for you,
But I still feel very very sad~
Maybe because I waited for so long and tried so many times for that chance?
I'm so so so damn stupid~
I shouldn't even feel anything at all~
I shouldn't be sad!!
I shouldn't even cry!!!

Because in the end,
It's just a game~

Even I told that to my self many times,
I still feel sad~
RAWRRRRRR!!

My heart.......damn pain~

What do you mean you your presence is an extra?!
What do you mean you don't need to be here at all??!!!!!!

When I need you, WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU??!!!!
You keep ignoring me every time, then when i ignore you, you say you are extra, and don't need to be here...

YOU BREAK MY HEART BAD DAMN IT!!! I REALLY VERY VERY VERY ANGRY READY!!!!

Last time you ignore me I keep forgive you, forgive, forgive........
But you are still the same!!!!!

What you don't know is, everytime when I'm sad, no one will come to me, not even my best friend!!
But everyone will go to you....
And you say you are an extra....

I heart really pain, everyone sure will think is my fault, is my bad, is me who is not good, is me who keep scolding you and all....
But even when I say again and again, no one will trust me....
And just leave me alone~
And say I'm the wrong one~

I'm forever the wrong one~~~~~
I'm a trash~
So I should just jump back into the rubbish can~

Biology Field Trip~

Yesterday was a school replacement class, so we have to go to school. During bio lesson, Pn.Ean decided to bring us outside school to a field to do an experiment on Mimosa Pudica population. My classmates are some cute little brats!! xD When teacher say we should do this experiment at a random rate, they flew their quadrant around the field. xD Pn.Ean was like "My goodness". Well, my cute classmates. xD The stupid Chan Chung brought his phone to school so he took some picture of us. xD It was a real fun day I can say, and Pn.Ean said we are actually quite a disciplined class~ =D

Me counting the population~ =D

haha the cute doggie we always bully~ ><

My group~ =D

Like this? ='] ~

Some what, i think it's true. I'm so so so so hurt right now. How could you be so selfish? Why is it me who is wrong in everything? SO unfair, mistreated, misunderstood. All this sucks~ ='(

My Voice Inside~

I have been quite a long long long time I haven't updated my blog. Few reasons are:
(1) I was lazy~
(2) I was concentrating on my my 2nd monthy test~
(3) I was busy with my Wushu performance (for National Day)~
(4) I was quite in a bad mood to write (just like my previous posts)~
(5) I was lazy~

Haha!! Okay. Now, I wanna talk about the day we perform during the eve of National Day. Well, haha truth to be told, it sucks. Not that the performance sucks, I just hate to perform. Don'y know, somewhat I had this kind of hate feeling for it. Haha I have to admit, I cried because.....ahh *SHHH*. Not something to let everyone know~ =P Well, someone saw and comforted me. Thanks, he made me feel better. =D Well, after that, I told Lai Fa I don't want to perform anymore. But then he told me, he just wanted me to perform for my last time during 22 September as it is going to be a big event. So I accepted it, while regretting ~  Okay haha time for pictures!! =D

Most of us~

Three boys~

Me~ ><

Haha Epic hair~ xD

My handsome~ =D

Haha all of us!! =D

There are many things that happened, but I'm not going to say what, because not everything is suppose to be known by all~ =P But there just a person I bumped into, Shao Ee. We never talked at all after she quitfrom being a prefect and yesterday, we met again after school and I really don't know how I started telling all about what I feel to her. Guess what? She said I was the best person to talked to and the person who understands her most *Flattered*. She also poured out some of her problems to me and we talked so much, that we haven't finish until even today~ I love her so much~ ><

Oppsy, blurr ><

Ehh.....don't know what else I'm going to say some more, I'm feeling so so so down right now. Have a little conflict in my life, crying everyday, and going to be crazy anytime *I guess*. Gahhh hate this feeling!! >< My eyes are going to spoil!! ><