I'm So Stupid~

I'm really really stupid~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I cried.
I'm a stupid useless crybaby~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I am down whole day.

I know I have waited for very long,
And tried a lot for chance in exchange of luck~
I waited for months,
Tried for more than 40 times~
I finally got my chance, but not my luck~
It means I lost my chance by bad luck~

I should be happy~
I am happy for you,
But I still feel very very sad~
Maybe because I waited for so long and tried so many times for that chance?
I'm so so so damn stupid~
I shouldn't even feel anything at all~
I shouldn't be sad!!
I shouldn't even cry!!!

Because in the end,
It's just a game~

Even I told that to my self many times,
I still feel sad~
RAWRRRRRR!!