Crazy again~

Recently we have our trainings for the upcoming competition on January (push-hand). Every training is a pain in the neck, but atleast we had fun today~~ we did many crazy stuff today.

Aww poor lai fa~ xD

Human burger tower....?

Ohh, they had fun~ xD

Haha sha sha de~~

Like a kiddo haha~

Daibi and I are going for a Wushu course next tuesday (4 Dec)  for three days to learn up the new routine for competitions and such. Quite nervous actually~~ @@ Luckily i'm not going to have to go alone!! Atleast there's someone I can take the bus and play together~ xD

Aww damn mikage why you so cute??!!

By the way, yesterday my mum brought me to a shopping center to buy heels for an occasion. Well I got one and it's pretty~

Height~ ><

P/S: Sorry for the absolute poor quality of the picture, it's a phone camera, 'cause I ain't got a camera myself~ 

Narhhhhhh~

Another disappointing day!!!!! Well it's nothing actually, just.......

07-Ghost!! Why you no come up with new episodes of anime??!! narhhhhhh~ T^T

Rawr!! I do hope it will be out soon. Waiting for a favorite show is torturing narhhhh~ T.T

Why do what I seriously don't want keep coming back to me? But then when I want something, I won't get it at all narhhhhh~ ==

Ermm....going to have a push-hand competition on January. Not sure if I will be ready by then~ @@

To a person I respect~
Why you have so much faith in me?
I feel guilty~
I just don't think I can do it at all....
But....
You....
Keep have your faith in me~
Narhhhhh~~ T.T

P/s: Mikage(pet version) WHY YOU SO CUTE? ><

Crazy~

Just got a call from my mum, which made me really angry. Really angry. I was having a afternoon nap because I hadn't had enough sleep yesterday. My mum called the house phone but I didn't pick it up because i was asleep soundly but then when the ringing almost end, I manage to wake up and then I just called her back.

When I called her back she asked:" Were you sleeping?"
I said:" Yes, anything?"
My mum:" No nothing, go back to sleep. Here I'm busy with my work and you never helped at all. I am very tired for my age for work and you do nothing at all. Never mind, go back to sleep. I don't need your help anymore."

LOL!! the last time, I offered to help her working, she said okay. But then, when she was going to work, she said I don't need to come because she was angry with my dad. Typically, when she gets angry, I'm involved. I had always helped her, it's not like I sat at home doing nothing or being couch potato. There's also so many houseworks for me and she don't even know how tired to death I need a rest I am. Okay don't wanna talk much.

Oh damn I'm angry~

I'm Still Alive~

Hey yoo I'm back!!!! Yes yes I'm still alive, just went missing for quite sometimes~ =D There are so many things happening that keep me from continue in updating my blog (the truth is, part of it is I'm lazy~) I had exam, and it was shitty, I failed 3 subjects buahahaha!! Ok also, I was quite addicted to Cabal, which I can play from morning till night, where my mum complains that I use the computer too much and did nothing else better. *sigh*

Atleast now I'm out from that playing Cabal from morning till night stuff, but still there was one more better thing that keep me away from my blog. 07-Ghost. I love it!!!! Really nice to watch and I'm really addicted to it~ damn, season 1 only have 25 episode and the story haven't finish yet. Now waiting for season is taking like ages!! Come on, many people love to watch it, why are they delaying the releasing date of season 2? So sad, hate to wait~ *sigh*

Tired tired tired!!! I feel like a zombie almost everyday. Coming back from Wushu training is the main reason why I'm tired. But then, my mum says I sleep too much. I am so tired that I can't even move, and the gets angry and said I am lazy. She planned to do house cleaning during my holiday because she though I'm free, that so, she made me restless. Now that house cleaning is done, I started waking up a little later in the morning, I so damn exhausted!! No no, I'm not telling my mum, she will just say something that will fire me up~ *sigh*

Okay erm, there's actually alot to say, but I don't know why my brain is stuck~ So erm, I think i will update again if I have any rubbish to say~ So long dudes!! =D

p/s: Frau (Zehel) is extreamly HANDSOME and COOL!!!

7 Ghost~ >< 

I'm So Stupid~

I'm really really stupid~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I cried.
I'm a stupid useless crybaby~
Just because of a very very very small matter, I am down whole day.

I know I have waited for very long,
And tried a lot for chance in exchange of luck~
I waited for months,
Tried for more than 40 times~
I finally got my chance, but not my luck~
It means I lost my chance by bad luck~

I should be happy~
I am happy for you,
But I still feel very very sad~
Maybe because I waited for so long and tried so many times for that chance?
I'm so so so damn stupid~
I shouldn't even feel anything at all~
I shouldn't be sad!!
I shouldn't even cry!!!

Because in the end,
It's just a game~

Even I told that to my self many times,
I still feel sad~
RAWRRRRRR!!

My heart.......damn pain~

What do you mean you your presence is an extra?!
What do you mean you don't need to be here at all??!!!!!!

When I need you, WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU??!!!!
You keep ignoring me every time, then when i ignore you, you say you are extra, and don't need to be here...

YOU BREAK MY HEART BAD DAMN IT!!! I REALLY VERY VERY VERY ANGRY READY!!!!

Last time you ignore me I keep forgive you, forgive, forgive........
But you are still the same!!!!!

What you don't know is, everytime when I'm sad, no one will come to me, not even my best friend!!
But everyone will go to you....
And you say you are an extra....

I heart really pain, everyone sure will think is my fault, is my bad, is me who is not good, is me who keep scolding you and all....
But even when I say again and again, no one will trust me....
And just leave me alone~
And say I'm the wrong one~

I'm forever the wrong one~~~~~
I'm a trash~
So I should just jump back into the rubbish can~

Biology Field Trip~

Yesterday was a school replacement class, so we have to go to school. During bio lesson, Pn.Ean decided to bring us outside school to a field to do an experiment on Mimosa Pudica population. My classmates are some cute little brats!! xD When teacher say we should do this experiment at a random rate, they flew their quadrant around the field. xD Pn.Ean was like "My goodness". Well, my cute classmates. xD The stupid Chan Chung brought his phone to school so he took some picture of us. xD It was a real fun day I can say, and Pn.Ean said we are actually quite a disciplined class~ =D

Me counting the population~ =D

haha the cute doggie we always bully~ ><

My group~ =D

Like this? ='] ~

Some what, i think it's true. I'm so so so so hurt right now. How could you be so selfish? Why is it me who is wrong in everything? SO unfair, mistreated, misunderstood. All this sucks~ ='(

My Voice Inside~

I have been quite a long long long time I haven't updated my blog. Few reasons are:
(1) I was lazy~
(2) I was concentrating on my my 2nd monthy test~
(3) I was busy with my Wushu performance (for National Day)~
(4) I was quite in a bad mood to write (just like my previous posts)~
(5) I was lazy~

Haha!! Okay. Now, I wanna talk about the day we perform during the eve of National Day. Well, haha truth to be told, it sucks. Not that the performance sucks, I just hate to perform. Don'y know, somewhat I had this kind of hate feeling for it. Haha I have to admit, I cried because.....ahh *SHHH*. Not something to let everyone know~ =P Well, someone saw and comforted me. Thanks, he made me feel better. =D Well, after that, I told Lai Fa I don't want to perform anymore. But then he told me, he just wanted me to perform for my last time during 22 September as it is going to be a big event. So I accepted it, while regretting ~  Okay haha time for pictures!! =D

Most of us~

Three boys~

Me~ ><

Haha Epic hair~ xD

My handsome~ =D

Haha all of us!! =D

There are many things that happened, but I'm not going to say what, because not everything is suppose to be known by all~ =P But there just a person I bumped into, Shao Ee. We never talked at all after she quitfrom being a prefect and yesterday, we met again after school and I really don't know how I started telling all about what I feel to her. Guess what? She said I was the best person to talked to and the person who understands her most *Flattered*. She also poured out some of her problems to me and we talked so much, that we haven't finish until even today~ I love her so much~ ><

Oppsy, blurr ><

Ehh.....don't know what else I'm going to say some more, I'm feeling so so so down right now. Have a little conflict in my life, crying everyday, and going to be crazy anytime *I guess*. Gahhh hate this feeling!! >< My eyes are going to spoil!! ><

Tears~

Been sad for one and a half hours le~

Everyone also sleep le,

Cannot find anyone~

Everyday also like this~

Really don't know what to do le~

Pressure~

I want to kisiao le,

Haha~

Heart very pain le, 

Haha~

Too much pressure le,

Haha~

Study here study there don't understand le,

Haha~

Homework can't do finish le,

Haha~

Brother kept silently bully me le,

Haha~

My mum kept scolding me le,

Haha~

My friends betray me le,

Haha~

I get AJK place which I really hate le,

Haha~

I made some one angry with me le,

Haha~

Someone mistake me I like him le,

Haha~

Prefect job become more and more tough le,

Haha~

Teachers keep blaming prefects le,

Haha~

Going to have another performance le,

Haha~

I become very stupid le,

Haha~

My mum keep blaming me for bad results le,

Haha~

Family no more money le,

Haha~

Family keep asking me to study things I don't like le,

Haha~

I really want to kisiao le,

Hahahahaha!!!

I'M A TRASH!!!!!

=D

This Is The Year~

Thank you very much.

Thank you for being the last person I hoped for, but lost my trust.

Thank you.

Yes, I'm actually a very fired person. I am born with this personality and ans there nothing much I can do with it. I normally thunder most at peps I count on because I know they get my pressure. At least,I hope they know. 

One thing I really really don't understand is, what haven't I told you? I have told you I'm dealing with pressure, and all kind of pressure like what I'm facing at home, how I can't catch up with my studies, how my family needs money, what my friends did to me...and so many more. You asked why, I told you. But then, every time, you kept asking the same thing, the answer is always the same. I have told you again and again. But now I know, what ever I told you, you never bear in mind. Since I'm already tired of keep saying the same thing, I kept saying nothing. And now, you said I won't tell you anything.

I understand that you care. I said I felt alone because when I cried, you just watch, pat, asked me not to cry and kept asking me why. For you kept asking me why is caring, but for me, it's pressure. At that time, I love hugs best, not by pressuring me when I'm already crying. 

Next, you said you don't know what to do, because when I said I feel alone, you start to care for me by asking me why why and why, like what happened and seems desperate to know why. But then you said when you care for me, I felt that you are giving me pressure. You don't understand.

Let me make you understand:
I felt alone     : When I'm down, I need someone to comfort me, make me happy again, make me laugh.
Pressuring me: When I'm down, don't feel like talking, and kept asking me why and what happened.

If this is offensive, made you angry, go ahead, I need it. I'm a trash after all! Wo shi fei wu. Chao ji lan chao ji mei you yong de fei wu.

All these years I've beening hiding all kinds of pain inside of me, and I haven't realised how big and painful it have grown. And this is the year where everything burst out, that my heart can't take it anymore. This is the year where I go to sleep every night after crying, or screaming silently. How many times of this year that I slept happily? I can count with my fingers.

I'm a trash, a bloody useless trash. =]

Hmmm~

Exam around the corner. I spent the whole day eating and watching Olympic Games. Well, I did study!! For 45 minutes~ Anti Exam!! ><

Poor Lee Chong Wei lost to Lin Din. He really wanted the gold, as it will be his last year taking part in the Olympic Games. Some dumbass don't know ho tough his journey is and keep condemning him. They are seriously dumb, not to mention, ass~


Going to Sri Petaling tonight. Hope it's not boring. Going to meet my cousin there. Hope he will be fun and not annoying~

Hmmm~

OMG She so damn pretty!!!!~

Son Yeon Jae

A Tricky one~

Heheh, see if can understand this~ =P

You will be surprised ~

Dumwit~

Please just stop being stupid!
If you want, own it!
If you hate, ignore it!
If you are shy, face it!
If you are brave, do it!
If you are angry, release it!
If you love, love sincerely!

Issshhhhh! I just don't know why people are being so stupid. What for being selfish? You are good at a subject and when someone wanted your help, you don't teach. What for hurting the one who loved you and go around telling people how much they disturb you by saying how much they love you, but in the end said you regret hurting them, and that you love them too? What for breaking up if you still love them, just because you are angry for that tiny moment? What for wasting the chance you have? What for asking for people's advice, but in the end, never follow them?

What for? I'm seriously, seriously, annoyed!! SMARTY-PANTS!! DUMWITS!!

Our Dear Lai Fa~

(Don't tell him i post this!! he will kill me haha!! xD)
Don't know what happened to him

Kisiao ready.

xD

I comb and pin his hair~

Dumbass~

Bu Shuang ah?? xD

Kisiao

My Journey~

In the end,

I walk alone.

And I think no one will come with me~

On My.....~

On my rough / sad / angry / lonely times, I want someone :

to make me smile

to stay by my side

to say something funny 

to encourage me

to understand me

to care for me

 to make me feel that I'm not alone

  to ease my tension

 I can entrust my secrets with

 who won't pressure me 

to entertain me

to comfort me

who I can share my feelings with

make me laugh

to walk my rough journey with me

On my rough / sad / angry / lonely times, I don't want someone :

to leave my side

to trust me when I said I'm okay

to keep asking me what happened

to just sit by my side without saying anything

to keep staring at me

just pat me and walk away 

keep asking me "Are you okay?"

to be down along with me

stay silent with me

smile only when I'm able to smile

If you can't follow most of this (especially the dont's), then you leave me alone!!

22/7/2012

Sunday
We had AGM on that day and it was fun. After Agm, we also had a dinner just like a celebration for our victorious concert which was held on 7/7. Well, let the picture do most of the talkings ok? =D

Getting ready for AGM

Tham and Shifu~

 Retired chairperson giving a speech~

Retired secretary~

The new comity members!! =D

Pose!!

In the evening, we had dinner, we watched the video of our concert, eat, and had lots of fun!!=D

Shifu giving a speech~

Taking food!!

Eating time!!

Yummy? haha~ xD

Awww daibi is sooo cute!! xD

yay me!! =D

He is cute!!!!! =D

oppsy ><

Ohh, picture taking time, as its our crazy moment!! =D

Banana, me and Ong~

They wanted to take pic with me and him =]

Gay couples hah!!

Our dear Yuen Hung's (blue shirt guy) signature post~

me and ying ying~

Girls~

Napet!! =D

So gay!

This is even more gay!!
T^T

Aww so handsome!! *squiels*

Okay, for the grand finale of this post, lets see some cute faces of our dear Daibi!! =D

The End.
Tata~
=D